Sunday, Jun 11 - 05:18 AM
After this week’s experiences, I am convinced that one need not worry about what anyone other person in the universe thinks of you because ultimately nothing matters and it is not their place to judge anyway. They couldn’t possibly understand it as you do anyway. It is so freeing to really understand that.
The past is all in the past and mentally needs to be in the past, too. I think I have worked through one heck of a lot and am truly grateful that I was able to because now I feel if there is such a thing as karmic dues, they are paid in full and all I have to do is get to work and get the Results I am capable of.
I feel like circumstances are behind me and I am in charge. I am wiser and more focused. I am enjoying my studying. It is refreshing to keep creating new ideas and then see them put into Action---that’s what ideas and education are all about—putting them into Action—to expand my horizons so I can be more effective at doing that.
I am coming out from lots and lots of layering. I was really buried under it all—wow! It’s incredible. Buddy said this is the 1st time that Sandy is finding Sandy and that is really good. I do feel that God’s messages are coming to me clearly now and I want to continue to listen as best I know how. All is well.
All of the above was a result of a seminar that I experienced in 1978 called Adventures In Attitudes. I said back then I am busting out all over with happiness. It is eking out all over me. I am grateful that I have had the opportunity to experience it and feel it.
Monday, Jun 12 - 06:45 PM
What is interesting about these writings is that I am faced with the same issues today, 26 years later, asking the same questions, coming up with deeper answers.
So the learning for me has been that we all live out patterns and these patterns live throughout our lives. If we can track them to notice them, then that helps us to eliminate them if they no longer are serving us.
Taking time to do this is what I call thinking at the core of your being. When you do that, you are coming from Spirit and that is where your real strength is. It is wonderful to learn how to connect up with it.
Philosophers of all ages have talked about it forever, but no matter how long they have talked, each one of us has to take it on like it has never happened before because in reality it never has happened before because we are unique and like none other on the planet---it never has been and never will be quite like it is for each of us. Think about it---isn’t that awesome?
So---awesome it is!
We all are unique individuals. We are here to learn and to contribute and the way we do both those things is our uniqueness. We ALL have something to contribute no matter how little we feel that we do sometimes.
Wednesday, Jun 14 - 11:17 AM
This week was the week that was! I went through a storm dealing with issues and somehow landed on my feet. If I had been paying more attention, the complications would have never happened. I concluded that saying less and listening more in some cases certainly is a more intelligent thing to do!
I remember when I went to Purdue, my dad said, “Now listen here, kid. When you get down there, you stick to your own knittin’ and keep your nose clean.” I was 17 when he said that - I have never forgotten it. It's pretty darn good advice - even today. I do remind myself of that every once in a while and it is still helping to keep things on an even keel.
Thursday, Jun 15 - 04:52 PM
I have pretty much decided that the best way to stay out of overwhelm is to say NO to EVERYTHING! Now, if I could just figure out how to get things done doing that, I would have it made! :-)
I guess the key is I need to pay attention to the things I am doing I really like to do that are important and if I don’t like to do them and they are still important, I delegate them to someone else because I am so often trying to do too much myself.
Ever since I made that decision, things have been more sane around here. I am living more free and it is all working better. When I think of all the people I know who are really happy, I notice that they are doing what they love to do. Makes sense to me. I am going to start doing more of that myself.
Friday, Jun 16 - 04:18 AM
I am still wearing my Me! Me! Me! shirt to remind me that I do have a right to live my life the way I want to and not the way other people think I should. Growing up as a kid, you have everyone telling you what you are suppose to do—parents, teachers, ministers, other authority figures and what have you even your peers.
That’s great if the people who are telling you know what they are doing. As I reflect on that, not everyone in my world back then knew what they were doing any more than I knew what I was doing!
I was lucky enough to have good people around me for the most part, but I know that I am still doing today some of the things they taught me back then and now I am sorting out what makes sense and what doesn’t. I am sorting out what is in my best interest and what isn’t. What I have learned is that old habit patterns are really hard to break sometimes.
Sometimes, it really gets confusing, because the pattern was set, but now the circumstances are different. I need to think about this some more. I still don’t have it all figured out, but I am working on it. Am thinking. . . . . . .
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