Monday, Jan 7 - 08:50 PM

I have found that I get to pivotal points in my life and without change at these points, I will not grow as much as I will if I am aware of these points. When I am aware, I need to then acknowledge these points and accept my realities whether I like them or not.

With three Aces in my life - awareness, acknowledgment and acceptance, then I can implement the fourth Ace and that is action - take action. Without action, nothing gets done and I am into results, so I do my best to pay attention to what I need to be doing.

Sometimes I do it great and sometimes I do it poorly, but all along the way, I find that I can do it all better when I am paying attention and am willing to change.

Tuesday, Jan 8 - 10:55 PM

I have to wonder sometimes if my head is screwed on right.
It's like whatever I was looking for today, I couldn't find.
Wherever I was going, I couldn't get there. I kept going
nowhere fast and wondered what was going on. Oddly enough, it
was a very good day, but as far as results go, I have to
conclude, they basically didn't happen.

I ask myself why, and I don't have an answer. I like to take
personal responsibility for my stuff, but in a whole day of
going nowhere fast, if I could find something to blame it all
on, I would be glad to jump at the chance.

By the end of the day, it leaves me with the idea that some
days are like that and the thing for me to do is to just go
with the flow in all this and not get too excited or out of
sorts about it.

Tomorrow has got to be a better day because in recent history,
it will have no competition! There is always something to look
forward to if you're lookin' and believe me, I'm lookin'.

Wednesday, Jan 9 - 10:02 PM

I have been spending some time on reflecting on the various things that have happened in my life and especially those things where I have made decisions that did not support the best results for me.

When I was a kid and would get upset about the stuff that happened to me that fell short of what I wanted - like winning a contest or some kind of competition and then I would waste precious time fretting over those things I could not change. Oddly enough, some things never change. Today, I am still capable of wasting time over the things I can't change.

When I was that kid, my dad would always say in a situation like that, "If dog rabbit". I asked him what that meant and he said it doesn't mean anything and that was the point. He said that to get me to move on and put the mistake in the past. Doing so represents the better use of my time.

I found myself going over in my head a mistake I made many years ago in trusting the words of some people who had what I thought a good product to invest in to find out there was more hot air there than fact. It was very frustrating because it cost me a lot of money and it was a big enough mistake that I did not throw it away as quickly as I might have and I have wasted a lot of time thinking about that decision.

Actually, I believe in what my dad said to me, "If dog rabbit." It doesn't make any sense and neither does fretting over something I can't change. So now what I do when I fall short of any of my goals,
I just say to myself, "If dog rabbit" and that helps me to get back on track to staying present to the moment to make life count more and enjoy it more while I'm at it.

Thursday, Jan 10 - 10:57 PM

I am getting it really clear that just about everything in my life happened because of me and my consciousness. My perception of things was not always accurate. I had the wrong information to determine that, and my wrong thinking did not help either.

I have found when something isn't working the way it would make me happier and at peace, I take a hard look at what "I" am doing to cause that. Sometimes, my conclusions are shocking to my mind and Soul. I decided that was ok because I find that the way I really get it is when something continues to go wrong.

My goal is to take less time to get it so I can spend more time enjoying it!

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