Monday, May 4 - 07:17 PM

I am trying to decide what I am going to do when I grow up. It
is an interesting place to be because I have all the things in
me that I have had that are good and working, but I also want
to change all those things in me that need to be changed.

It is not an easy task to determine what is the most important
and then set the priorities and keep the focus to do it. One
thing I know, until I know the direction I want to go, most of
what I might be doing will not fall in the category of
priorities and focus.

So, my job now is to find the Who I Am and the What I Want.
Then the priorities and focus can be determined and I can get
on with my life. It takes patience sometimes.

Tuesday, May 5 - 09:22 PM

I find that setting boundaries with myself and others is a key
point to living my life in abundance, happiness and joy
along with having better health and peace of mind.

Boundaries that are real and appropriate put a structure to my
life that makes things easier to happen in a more meaningful
way. Life is good!

Wednesday, May 6 - 08:54 PM

I have spent a lifetime of living my life, reviewing my life, evaluating my life, chastising my life and in general wanting to change my life, so my results are different.

There were things in my life that I never opted in for and yet there they were staring me in the face. I had to have something to do with that.

There were things I tried and didn't work and I had something
to do with that.

There were people, places and things that I ended up with and had to ask myself "what am I doing here?". Sometimes, I really didn't like the answers, but the one common denominator with all of them was ME. "I" was there and I knew that to change anything, it was me who had to change.

My burning question was, "Have you ever tried changing something about yourself that you lived with one way all of your life?" Well, it wasn't easy, but the good news is I am doing it.

Thursday, May 7 - 03:34 PM

There is LIFE beyond ego and I am on the journey to find out
more about that. It is very special, that's for sure.

This is another lesson that I can add to the long, long list of
clearing out ALL of the PAST. It is so important that I do
that and as a friend put it, "Be ruthless when you clear out
all that stuff!"

Friday, May 8 - 04:49 PM

I have given up the ghost of trying to control things in my
life. That doesnīt mean I throw the baby out with the
bathwater. I still have goals; I still focus on what I think
needs to be done; I still make things happen that are important
to me. BUT, I just donīt get that strung out if things happen
a little differently than I had planned. I find it isnīt worth
it to get upset if things do go haywire.

I finally realized that I am not manager of the universe and I
never will be, so I might as well enjoy the privilege of
getting to live on this planet and make the best of it. If the
best of it doesnīt always happen, then my ability to accept
those detours does determine my happiness levels.

I like being happy no matter what is going on. Sometimes I
like whatīs going on and sometimes I donīt, but controlling my
level of frustration by holding my mind in check does make a
huge difference. I love creating a calming effect in my
existence no matter what is going on because again, it does
make a difference in my quality of life. I end up with less
stress and I love to de-stress. It makes for more enjoyable

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