Tuesday, Nov 2 - 02:20 PM
I find that in my life I have emotional, physical and mental
clutter in my space and I am learning new ways to clear it all
out. I can see by continuing to do this, my whole life will
continue to get lighter and lighter all the way around. How
Wednesday, Nov 3 - 01:34 PM
I have given my mind a bath by scrubbing out any concerns,
worries, fears, frustrations and anything else that pulls my
energies away from me from which I end up giving my power away. It is time to take care of me now and let a lot of other
interferences go. They just aren't welcome to play in my
backyard anymore. My background looks great all of a sudden.
Thursday, Nov 4 - 11:49 AM
I find that I am clearing up a lot of energy from the past and
as it turns out, it is very freeing. Itīs like I am carrying
less weight on my shoulders and my whole being and I can think
more clearly, therefore, I get things done faster and with more
efficiency. Transformation is a wonderful thing and I am
just letting it happen.
Friday, Nov 5 - 06:13 PM
I was listening to an Oprah show I had taped and it was all
about sexual abuse. It really got my attention, not because I
was sexually abused, but because I was emotionally, physically
and mentally abused.
Because of that, I didn't know how to set boundaries. I let people walk all over me. I didn't stand up for myself and stand up to my
abusers. One day, I decided it was time for me to stop being
abused, but I found the feelings around all that and the
memories were just not clearing out. I had come a long way,
but had not cleared it out completely.
So, back to the Oprah show--there was a young lady by the name
of Selena on her show thanking Tyler Perry for having enough
courage to stand up and put his truth on the table so others
could heal. There were 200 other men on the show who had been
sexually abused when they were young children. The impact of
that show had to be incredible in changing people's lives.
For me to get it for me, Selena said 2 things:
I no longer am willing to give MY POWER away ever again to my
abuser and I am giving MY POWER back to me. I played that
comment over and over again just to get the total impact of
that and I finally got it. I said whether it is sexual,
physical, mental or emotional abuse, it is all the same energy.
It's just different projects. And with that, I GOT IT!
Something snapped inside me then and I doubt that I'll go back
to any of that ever again. It's not to say, I won't experience
bad treatment upon occasion, but it's how I hold all that in my
head is what makes the difference.
Saturday, Nov 6 - 05:21 PM
I find that joy is a wonderful thing. I see where gratitude
goes a long way for living in peace. I know that happiness
comes from recognizing and appreciating what we do have in
life. I have to say I have a whole lot to be grateful for.
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