Monday, Aug 8 - 09:28 PM

I am paying attention to life in such a way I know more about it and what people are up to. I find that I am not as gullable as I have been much of my life. I guess it is time to get this one so I can continue to enjoy life more and I am not being led down paths of misguided nothingness.

I find life is best for me when I am paying attention to the truth and am not just hoping for something that is not real. I find that the truth really does set you free.

Tuesday, Aug 9 - 09:07 PM

I am paying more attention to what is behind peopleīs decisions so I find myself less snowed than I have been in the past. It has not hurt me to become more pragmatic than I have probably ever been. I have always been a results-oriented person, so being more pragmatic canīt hurt in my overall decision-making skills. It makes for better results and we like results with less effort. When that is possible, I love it.

Wednesday, Aug 10 - 09:37 PM

Life is good. I understand it better and the not so good things that happen on occasion are less and less of a problem because I don't put the same emphasis on them as I used to.

Maybe that means I am simply hitting another level of maturity in my life while I'm at it. . .. . :)

Thursday, Aug 11 - 09:04 PM

I have noticed that my energy lately is like it was when I was in my 30's. I have been giving that fact some thought and have some ideas on the matter. The main one is that I think I have new found energy because people I care about are now safe and I no longer worry about them and their safety. Such has not been the case for at least four years if not longer.

I have created a space where they are safe and well taken care of and I am no longer living in that kind of fear of seeing something happening to people I really care about.

I don't think I fully understood how much fear I was living in that just really totally sapped me of my natural energy. I knew things were hard for me, but I don't think I realized how much the fear and frustration were affecting my health and peace of mind.

Actually, for the first time in a long time, I feel like I am getting my life back. It's a wonderful feeling and I appreciate it so much that I sometimes find myself pinching myself to make sure this is real. In gratitude, I find that it is real. For that, I am truly grateful. . . . . . .

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