Monday, Jul 2 - 07:56 PM

I don't think I really knew how disorganized I really was until I started changing the organization of my email filing system. It was so symbolic of what I do in the other parts of my life. I was beginning to notice that I was spending more time looking for things than made sense to me so I decided to clean house. I learned through the process that we have all kinds of houses in our being. I found my physical, emotional, intellectual and financial houses were all affected by one defining concept - clean up your messes. It does make a difference. That decision helped me to be freed up from more disruptions to my desired goals. It was a very good decision.

Tuesday, Jul 3 - 01:15 PM

I am not sure exactly why it took me so long to learn this, but I finally figured out that everything in my life all along has been my responsibility. I remember a time when I felt that if my parents had taught me this or that, I would have been better able to handle that and this.

Well, that might have been true when I was ten years old, but when I grew up, that was not the case. I had "choice" then no matter why I chose to do what I did. I still made the choice and every single choice had its immediate consequences or its long-range consequences and it took years for me to sort all that out. That was an interesting project I might add.

So, in the final analysis, I am personally accountable for all my choices and I have had the privilege of facing all the
consequences that have gone with those choices over the years.

Thursday, Jul 5 - 07:50 PM

I am managing my time and energy a lot better. Even with distractions, I keep managing my time and energy better.
When I have more energy, I get more things done that I enjoy
doing. I like that, so I think Iīll just keep doing more of
that. For me, itīs called self-management and being more
personally accountable. It feels good.

Friday, Jul 6 - 09:35 PM

I find it fascinating to do a study of the mistakes I have
made in my life and equate the lessons of truth learned as a
result of those mistakes. I do like what Eckhart Tolle taught
me. He said "If you learned from your mistakes, they are not

I really like that idea. It helps me feel better because at
the very least, I had some wonderful lessons of truth learned
that made the experiences more acceptable.

In my exploration, I can tell you I have learned A LOT if that
tells you anything. :)

Saturday, Jul 7 - 08:16 PM

My dad died eleven years ago. I believe I have learned more in the years since he died, than in my whole life put together. I find there is a lot wrapped around change that can put stressors on your life you donīt always expect. The beauty of my experience here is the learning I can take to the next phase of my life and apply to my projects and goals that are important to me. It is transformational at the very least and I like that.

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